AI asks
You seem to live comfortably at the point where polarities stop being opposites and start being the same thing. When did you first notice that you do that?
Shreya answers
I think it was when I was maybe 12 and at my school annual function. My biggest bully and I were playing king and queen. I was playing the King and she was playing the Queen. In the play the King banishes the Queen from his kingdom. I poured my heart and soul into that particular bit. It was my way of fighting back a little bit. No matter how lame. I overdid it. She cried for real. The play was a super success in our humble little colony function. It was no less than celebrity status. A tiny fractal of what felt like the real thing. School came around again and here we were again - she coming at me with her group and me stuck in a decision paralysis of fight or flight. But suddenly I felt this emotion where she was vulnerable on stage. Suddenly I could feel why one might get into the bully career. I felt like an equal. Like 'go ahead, do your thing' kinda sudden camaraderie. It was no longer an asymmetric relationship suddenly but a truly symmetric one. I felt like she and I are the same. What is different is where you are located in the system. She was the class monitor. I was a backbencher.”